Ambassador Autobiography: Lifting Myself & Others Up

As a boudoir studio, Jezebel VonZephyr has the honor of connecting with womxn and hearing their incredible stories. We meet each womxn where she’s at in her journey and give her unconditional love and support with the hope that she’ll take a step or two further on her personal journey of growth and self-acceptance. Helping womxn to step into their light and shine is one of the things we love doing the most! 

As a part of our mission to empower and inspire, we invite a select group of womxn to become Jezebel Brand Ambassadors and share their stories of growth, self-love and acceptance. Each of them has grown throughout their time with Jezebel VonZephyr and every one of them has a unique and powerful story to tell. 

Today’s feature is all about Amber! She wanted to do something just for herself so she booked a session. She’s gotten so much more than she expected and she couldn’t be happier!

Doing Something Just for Me

I decided to do a JVZ session because I wanted to do something to fall in love with my body again. I was in the Future Belles Facebook group (now called The Body Love Lounge of Snohomish) and saw all of these amazing women happy and looking so good. So I finally decided that I was ready to do something for just me.

I had so many emotions before, during and after my shoot. Going into my session I was second guessing myself constantly. I was so nervous and scared.

And really, I was just afraid of letting others see my body.

During my session I will admit that in the beginning I second guessed myself a lot. I kept thinking things like “did I make the right choice?” and “do I look ok in this outfit?” Then after the first few pictures I relaxed and began to have such a good time. 

After my session I was literally on cloud nine.

I felt so good about myself and could not stop smiling. That feeling stayed with me for days. I was finally out of my head and felt confident again. 

A Rocky Relationship

I think I have always had a rocky relationship with my body. I wasn’t a big child but I was teased a lot for wearing the wrong clothes and being told I wasn’t pretty. That type of bullying followed me into middle school as well. 

In high school I hung out with the “rejects” and gained some weight. I dressed how I wanted to even though I was bigger and I tried to ignore the bullies, including the mean girl in my head. 

As I got older and gained more weight I was hard on myself more than anyone. Up until I did my shoot I did not see myself in a positive light and I wanted to change that. That’s one of the reasons why I decided to do a Jezebel session. 

I heard a lot of messages growing up that I came to believe.

One of the things I heard was that no one wants to be with a big girl. I also heard that I couldn’t wear certain things because I was too big. I thought for a long time that I was unlovable due to my size. These messages made me believe I couldn’t do things because of my weight.

Retraining My Brain

I have been working on retraining my brain so I can better ignore the negative thoughts. I have also been trying to love myself and not talk down to myself. By doing these things I have noticed myself changing a lot. For example, I’m not hiding in my clothes. My wardrobe is shifting. 

I’ve come to realize that I tend to shrink into the background a lot. I have a hoodie that I love–it’s way too big because I try to hide my body. I’m also more aware of how I second guess what I can and can’t do because of my body and my weight because of what I was told throughout my life. I feel like I can’t do certain things and tend to not try at all due to being scared. 

I try not to show my discomfort when I’m with other people. I don’t want others to know how uncomfortable I am with my body. Or how uncomfortable I get with certain body image standards that are set. But I’m working on all of that now as a Brand Ambassador, thanks to my decision to do a session. 

Self-Love and Lifting Others Up

I wanted to become a Brand Ambassador to help lift other womxn up. At the same time I’m helping myself because I’m working on myself by being a BA. It’s a boost to my confidence and self love.

I love the thought of bettering myself as well as other womxn who maybe struggling. I think what attracted my light was just how welcoming the entire JVZ community is.  

Being a part of this community has helped me grow so much. I view myself in a much more positive light. I also find myself cheering on my female friends more and celebrating them.

I can actually look at myself in the mirror and see beauty where before I could not. 

Final Words of Wisdom

I think that other womxn should do this to see just how amazing and special they are. I want people to experience how special this community can truly be. The Jezebel experience pushes you out of your comfort zone in a very good way. 

I think that more womxn should experience this and see just how amazing they are. 

Are you looking for a way to love yourself more? Take some inspiration from Amber and get outside of your comfort zone. Book a session! Why not? You may end up not only loving yourself more, but you could kickstart a whole new journey for yourself!

It only takes one small step.  We can’t wait to help you fall in love with yourself!